Dark Love

I try to hide the pain

In a tear stained darkened room

Praying it won’t last forever

Hoping this too shall pass, and soon

Trying to hide the grief

For the man I thought I knew

The man I fell in love with

Not the man I now know as You

Trying to hide the hurt

That you carved into my heart

The man who made me fall in love

With who you were back at the start

Trying to hide the embarrassment

That I live with every day

How could I have been so blinded

I guess love was in the way

I try to hide the moments

When I think of you and smile

If I could run away from memories

From ones with you, I’d run a mile

I try to hide the sadness

That I feel deep down inside

The pain of never seeing you again

Like a part of me has died

I try to hide the terror

That I saw inside your eyes

The darkness that descends

As your light gets dim and dies

I try to hide the horror

I’ve seen within your soul

How I should have been terrified

As I watched you change your role

I try to hide the madness

That kept me by your side

My own darkness that recognised you

My shadow almost enjoying the ride

I try to hide the disappointment

Of what I thought we could have been

A beautiful adventure

A love story never seen

I try to hide the shame

For still thinking about you

For forgetting even for a second

The things you chose to do

I try to hide my weakness

In the moments I still break

Like each and every morning

When I think of you as I wake

What I try to hide the most

Is the guilt as it eats me alive

You could have done so much damage

To forgive this I can only strive

What I can’t hide from any longer

Is the lies and pain you chose to cause

When all i did was love you

Including all your flaws

So I try to hide I miss you

As I pray the pain will fade

Trusting I know who’s listening this time

Trusting my price was paid.